what's next.

I had an appointment with my RE two days ago. He basically said these things take time and there could be a million different reasons why it didn't work last cycle. He said I could move on to IUI, IUI with shots/injectables, or just a medicated cycle, or monitored/trigger shot cycle. DH really would prefer if we got pregnant on our own but ultimately it's up to me. I just don't think I'm ready for IUI yet. I feel like once I go down that path there is no going back and it will just get harder & more stressful. The RE keeps telling me that the good thing is I'm still young...but in reality age has nothing to do with it when you're dealing with infertility. It hurts no matter how old you are :(

My progesterone was fairly low last cycle and my lining was on the thin side, so wondering if I should just do Femara and some sort of progesterone/estrogen supplement. But RE does not seem concerned about either one of those things.

It's hard to remember a time before ttc when you've been at it so long. I just have to have faith that God will carry me through this storm.

broken

AF showed yesterday and I had a total breakdown. Throughout the entire 2 years of ttc I've never cried, but yesterday I was hysterical. My poor dh could not calm me down; I just cried and cried and cried. I was so hopeful this cycle after the surgery back in November... and this was the first time we could try since then and RE told me beforehand that he was "extremely optimistic". I just feel so broken. I'm a little better today. I'm going out of town for work during cd11-13 this cycle so now we can't try again until march 14th. RE wants us to do IUI for the first time next cycle and I just honestly never thought it would get to this point.

All I can do is pray.