updates

So my IUI in May was cancelled.  I went in for cd12 ultrasound and RE saw “no measurable follicles”.  I continued testing with OPKs at home, and got a positive OPK on cd14.  Hope?  We continued to bd, and I got a super, super faint positive hpt on cd26.  Went in for blood test and it was negative.  AF ended up being one week late and my cycle was 34 days (usual cycles for me are 25-27 days).  So the whole time I was in Africa I kept thinking “this could be it”…but it wasn’t.

RE said the Femara has run its course and after 6 failed cycles it is time to move to Clomid.  I told him I was VERY concerned about switching to Clomid because of my history of cysts and thin uterine lining.  He said it was a risk we had to take.  I started Clomid 50mg cd 5-9, and also started vdot patch early in my cycle.  I also started taking mucinex because I read Clomid can really dry you up and thicken cervical mucus.  I went in today (cd12) for my ultrasound and I had 6 follicles (!!!) 18, 17, 16, 15, 13, 13.  BUT, there was a major problem.  Just like I feared, my lining was only 3.08.  I was devastated and told my RE this was my concern from Clomid and now it actually happened.  He had the nurse give me an estradiol injection (another $120 for that) and he said to continue using the vdot patch.  I will go back on cd 14 for another ultrasound, and most likely trigger that night if my lining looks good, and then IUI on cd16.  He said my follicles were getting close to maturing, so I need to monitor with OPKs at home and let them know immediately if I get a positive. I go in for acupuncture tomorrow, so hopefully that will help my lining too.

I just feel like it’s always something.  I feel upset, sad and defeated.  I know there is still a chance this cycle, but it just feels so slim.  I’m seriously considering switching to another RE, because I’ve been with this one a year in July.  One year and no bfp.  I thought the surgery was the answer to my infertility, and he assured us it would happen after that.  We are now 7 months after my surgery and I’m still not pregnant.  This is just so hard.

Please, Lord, let this work.  I’m totally surrendering to you and crying out your name, Father.  Please, please, please give us a baby. I'm on my knees, Lord, and I trust Your will.