I just feel like I could throw-up. I feel so overwhelmed and sad. I am depressed, anxious and exhausted. Our 4th and final IUI did not work. We agreed that we would not waste money on
another IUI if this fourth one didn’t work, because obviously it was not going
to happen if it didn’t happen in four tries.
IVF costs upward of $12,000 (all out of pocket). I cried and cried and cried when I found out
that this would be our only option. Why us? Why is this happening when everyone around us
is having babies so easily? Why the
heartache? I just have to keep reminding
myself that God has a plan. It is ALL in
His timing. It is just so hard and heartbreaking. But I know He didn’t promise that the journey
would be easy. In fact, He told us it
would be hard. I just wish I was
stronger. But I am so grateful that He
is strong enough for ALL of us. He will
carry me when I can no longer walk. Help
me, Lord. I need You.
I am so sorry you feel so broken. It certainly takes a strong individual to walk the path of infertility. I have asked these same questions over and over again these past 3 years. I don't know that I'll ever truly understand the why.
ReplyDeleteIVF costs are outrageous and until it's covered by insurance in every state, it's simply not fair. Just know that your chances of bringing that beautiful baby home are so much higher and I hope that helps to at least not focus on the costs (though that's hard when you see your savings decrease and your debt increase.
You have admirable faith and he will continue to push your forward and stand by your side. I'll be checking in on you and supporting you the entire way.
I'm so sorry.. I know how you feel, and you will get through this. I have started the process toward my first IVF and I have had my ups and downs. We don't have any other options to get our baby. My state does not have coverage either so everything is out of pocket for us as well. Faith is what keeps me moving forward and I know that it will do the same for you.
ReplyDeleteI am here for you as well. If you need any information please let me know. And I have a great pharmacy to order IVF medications for a fraction of the cost. I will be praying for you.
Hi! I just came across your blog. I am so sorry you are going through this. Having everyone around you having babies makes it even harder, You ARE strong! People who haven't gone through this have no idea how much strength it requires, so hang in there! Hugs!
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