happy

I am feeling so much better than I was when I wrote my last post.  A lot has happened in the last week and I am feeling like a weight was lifted off my shoulders.  I feel positive, excited and hopeful.

Dh went with me to my RE appt last Tuesday.  Dh and I had been to talking back and forth about doing IVF internationally because it is so much cheaper.  The pro was that we’d save a lot of money, and the con was that I’d miss at least 3 weeks of work.  But I just didn’t have a peace about it.  I had the appt with my RE scheduled for a few weeks, so even as we were moving more and more towards international IVF, we still went to talk with the RE to see what he had to say after my 4^th failed IUI.

He said, of course, that he highly recommends IVF for us and that we’re great candidates.  His success rate with someone my age is around 50% (the international clinic was only a 30% success rate).  IVF costs $11,000 (we thought it was $12,000) and we pay for the meds a few weeks before the cycle starts, and pay the rest ($8,500) closer to the time of retrieval.  Dh and I both asked a lot of questions.  RE said that I was technically not considered “unexplained” since I’ve never had regular, 28 day cycles (even though I always ovulate).  I told him if we went through IVF – all the money, time off, emotional commitment – and then it didn’t work that I would be absolutely devastated.  He said again that he feels like we are really good candidates but still the odds of it working are 50%.  When we left the appt Dh said he felt we should do IVF at his clinic, even it costs more.  He said the expenses with the trip and time off work were not worth it, and he likes the local RE.  I felt so relieved. 

Then, this is the best part – this is really how I saw God working through all of this:  I am part of a private facebook group with about 50 women who are going through infertility from all over the country.  I posted that we decided to stay here for IVF and that it would be a struggle to save the money for IVF before January.  Another girl in the group that just went through IVF and got her bfp posted that she had a TON of left over meds and would love to send them to me!!!  She has the exact stims I need and most are unopened and don’t expire until 2015.  This will save us $2,800!  Which means we would only have to come up with $8,500 for IVF!!!!!  I was so overwhelmed by how much I felt God through all of this – I told my husband that His mercies are new everyday – just like it says in the Bible.  He truly is faithful!

So right now (as we know plans could always change) we are planning to go through IVF this January at our local clinic.  The nurse said to call the first of November to start planning everything and to start bcp.  Any advice that y’all can give about going through IVF would be much appreciated!  Thank YOU LORD!!!!