carry me

"You are on the cusp of some major life changes...." quoth my acupuncturist today.  And she's right.

Have I mentioned that we decided to move forward with IVF in February?  I start bcp in mid-January, and most likely start stims around February 7th, with retrieval/transfer toward the end of the month.

We did not get the grant.  I was devastated. So DH and I sat down and discussed it at length (I cried through most of the conversation...it's just so overwhelming), and we figured out the financials as best we can and picked a firm date. We are going to have to get a loan, which DH is totally not okay with, but it's the only way.  No other option.  DH also graduates from his Master's program in February, and I'm switching jobs in February.  I guess you could say it's a big month for us.  And I'm overwhelmed. I'm excited, scared to death, anxious and just plain overwhelmed.

How do you cope with something like this?  How did it come to this?  I'm still struggling with the acceptance part.  I can't believe we're going through this at such a young age (27).

Can I ask for your prayers?  Pray that I find peace in the next few weeks. Pray that this works.  Pray that I cling to God more than I ever have.

So we're taking the leap. A big, huge leap of FAITH.  Carry us, Lord.

"Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Jesus Christ." -Philippians 1:6