a miracle

I wrote in a post a few months back that I could feel God was planning something big in my life.  I knew He was making moves and I just clung to my faith and prayed for patience.  Throughout this whole infertility journey I’ve really tried to put everything in perspective and keep focusing on Jesus.  What else did I have if not Him?  My faith was everything – the only thing that kept me going.

And on Friday, I witnessed a real-life miracle.  I felt Jesus right next to me.  A true miracle – just like it says in the Bible.

I was supposed to start bcp on Sunday to get this whole IVF process started.  I was to call the nurse as soon as I started my period so we could schedule all the testing, etc.  Thursday morning I spotted a little, so I immediately called the nurse and told her it was cd1.  I was having cramps, my boobs were killing me, and I just knew full AF would arrive later that day.  I even told my acupuncturist on Wednesday that I was about to start my period any day, so she focused on my uterus and my flow.  I even put a tampon in prematurely on Thursday, because I didn’t want to start bleeding all over my pants.  By Thursday night, I still had not started.  No biggie, I just thought AF was late.  I was a little concerned because I could not start bcp until I got my period.  So I really wanted AF to hurry up.  Friday morning and still nothing – no sign of AF.  I called the nurse around noon and she said if I started over the weekend, I could still start bcp on Sunday. She said otherwise call her on Monday (today) and we would regroup.

I got home from work on Friday and was cleaning the house before we went to dinner with friends.  DH was running a race the next morning, so he was downtown at the expo getting all his information for the next day.  For some reason, I decided to take an opk, just to see what happened.  I had a pregnancy test but did not want to waste it.  The digital opk came back with a smiley face – positive.  I started talking with the girls in our private facebook group, and they told me to take the pregnancy test.  I was planning on waiting until Saturday morning, because I thought I had to use first morning urine, but they convinced me to take the test immediately.

And it was positive.  I started bawling crying.  I was shaking, almost hyperventilating.  The line kept getting darker and darker.  And I fell on my knees and thanked God for what truly was a MIRACLE.  I prayed and prayed and told Jesus that I would raise this baby for Him – to always know Him and love Him.  And I meant it!!!

I am still in shock and we are so happy!!!!  I called DH and he started screaming.  I could not stop crying!  I took 5 more tests over the weekend, and all came back with strong positives.  This was DAYS before I was supposed to start IVF.  After battling infertility for 3 years, 4 IUIs, femara, clomid, surgery….I got a miracle bfp on a natural cycle, the month before I was to start in-vitro.

If that’s not God, then I don’t know what is.  He fulfills His promises, yall.  HE IS SO FAITHFUL!!!! I am in love with a Savior that performs miracles.  He walks on water, heals the sick, and He ROSE FROM THE DEAD!  What a mighty God!!!

I went for bloodwork this morning to check my HCG numbers and my progesterone.  I just know this is our baby to keep.  I have faith that this pregnancy will last.  And I am in awe of how awesome our God is.  PRAISE THE LORD!!!!

“For I know the plans I have for you,”  declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.  Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.  You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”  -Jeremiah 29:11-13