recovering.

It’s been four days since my surgery.  I was extremely anxious when they wheeled me into the operating room, and I started hysterically crying when they tried to put the IV in.  For some reason it hurt so bad and I just couldn’t take it.  I think I was also so nervous about the whole thing and that didn’t help.  They had to call another nurse in to numb my arm so they could put the needle in.  After that everything went well; I woke up a little nauseous and itching my face (they gave me Benadryl for this because I was really starting to scratch my face).  My sweet husband and mom were there through the whole surgery.  I ended up staying at the hospital until 4pm because I felt really sick.  We finally went home and I stayed in bed the rest of the weekend.  My husband was such an angel through the whole thing.  I really cannot say enough how thankful I am for him and how much I love him.  It’s overwhelming.

The RE said my septum was actually smaller than he had anticipated it would be.  They also found stage 1 endometriosis – this shocked me as we had never discussed the possibility of me having endo as they did not find it in my previous lap 3.5 years ago.  He also drained the cyst near my ovary.  We can start ttc again in January (after I finish provera).  I went for my follow-up appointment yesterday so he could remove the balloon that was keeping my uterus from collapsing in on itself (scary right?) and it was SO painful.  I actually screamed when he took it out.

I spent the whole weekend trying to manage my pain and sleep, and I realized yesterday that I had not thanked God one time for getting me through everything.  And I felt so ashamed.  But the amazing thing (that is still hard for me to comprehend sometimes) is that He still loves me even when I neglect Him.  He forgives me when I make mistakes.  He is the only reason I am alive and well.  I love Him so much!

So now, very reminiscent of my previous post, I will wait and see what God has in store for me.  And I will continue to praise Him through this storm.

"I prayed for this child, and the Lord has granted me what I asked of him."  1 Samuel 1:27